In six months time, life has shifted from uncertainty into a place of elastic stability. I say “elastic stability” meaning that things are stable and plans are being made, but there is always the factor of change. Plans may shift and the elasticity gives room for these changes to be made without everything falling apart.

This is an exciting time for me. Just last week I was feeling weighted down with working two jobs and the monotony of life that comes with trying to make “responsible” choices (like paying off debt and getting myself on solid financial ground). But then I started planning for my vacation in six months, once I have saved up the money. I made a decision about where I want to travel-Central America. Now, suddenly, there is this excitement that wells up in me throughout the day. I can’t wait for this trip! I’m going to travel through four countries and see the Mayan ruins.

I’ve done Internet research and chose the perfect travel book after much internal debate at the bookstore this weekend. I can’t remember the last time that I felt this sort of enthusiasm and anticipation. I love reading through the travel book and looking at maps and figuring out where I will go, how long I will stay, and what I will be doing. And then knowing that even as I plan, I really have no idea what will happen once I get there. I still love the planning process and am enjoying being wrapped up in it.

This will be the first time that I travel to a foreign country on my own. While there is some fear and slight hesitation, the waves of energy that flow through my body when I think about this trip tell me that this is exactly what I need to do.

Beyond traveling, I am starting to look forward to going back to school next year to get my MFA in Writing. It’s hard to believe that a year ago I was leaving teaching with no idea what life held in store for me. When I tried to look ahead into the future, all I could see was a foggy wall of white, with no idea what the view looked like beyond it. Now there is a clear path opening up before me. That’s not to say that there won’t be roadblocks and potholes along the way. But there is a path.