Thursday, February 14, 2008

we flow now,
moving through our life,
with an ease
a smooth surface,
occasional ripples
the comfort that only comes
from truly knowing another
by taking the time
to wade through the tough stuff
rather than drifting apart

water wearing down rocks
running over the grooves
into the guts of who we are
rubbing against and refining the shape of our relationship
washing away pieces we didn’t need
and healing those places
where we hurt each other deeply
acknowledging and apologizing when necessary
calmly carrying us toward understanding

and so we have this life
together
one that has been cut and carved out
by the surge of our streams merging
through a shared language
of smooches and birdies and love your face
a smile that conveys the silent “I love you”
a knowing touch
and even the heated words
followed by a gentle embrace

we flow side by side
your strong and steady stream of life
coursing next to my current of consciousness
before swirling together
and then parting again
strong enough to run on our own
but stronger still when supported by one another
we spill over with love

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

After months of meditation and prayer, I have finally come up with an address for my prayers that feels right in my heart. When I first started praying, I would send the prayers out to the universe, which at times felt right, but at other times felt too expansive, too impersonal. I've been reading a lot of books about different goddesses and feel a connection to many of them. I feel like goddesses live within me, but can also be their own entity outside of me. And so, I have started sending my prayers to the Great Goddess. I imagine a mother figure, with a large lap where I can lay my head and a strong body that I can lean against. She is grand and fleshy and womanly. She can handle all of the thoughts, fears, and emotions that I bring to her. She is gentle, compassionate, and understanding. She wipes tears away, rocks me in her lap, and strokes my hair when I need comfort. She is firm with me as she guides me along this path toward living as my highest self.