Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I find myself entering a new phase of my journey. For the past couple of years, I spent my time figuring out who I am and what I want in my life. I also spent a lot of time developing my spirituality...determining what I wanted it to look like. I delved into studies of goddesses and reading about the path that other women have taken to find the divine in their lives. I meditated in many ways and forms. I have kept what works for me and let the rest go. I feel strong in my spiritual life, grounded despite the twists and turns of the journey.

And now, I am shifting into new territory. No longer needing to define and accept who I am, I see myself moving into a place of healing. Physically, mentally, and emotionally I realize that I need to heal pieces of my past, as well as patterns that persist into the present. I found an amazing doctor at a Health and Healing Clinic who practices holistic medicine. He is an MD as well as an acupuncturist. Through our visits, we have found that I have a low functioning thyroid and we are now working together to find the best way to provide the hormones and chemicals that my body needs in order to feel energized. We are looking at acupuncture, yoga, stress reduction techniques, visualization, affirmations, and on and on the list goes. Although the progress is slower than a traditional "take this pill and feel better" approach, I am enjoying the process and learning as I go.

I don't know how or why or when this shift began. But this week, it has been confirmed in many ways that I have moved into a new place. The director that I work with as a spiritual care volunteer said to me, "I can just tell that there are changes happening for you right now. Big shifts that I wish you the best with." And this was without me mentioning anything.

I am excited for this next phase. I feel up to the challenge of healing. And I think that many good things will come from the process. Of course I have no idea what is to come, but I feel positive energy flowing within and around me. Armed with a stronger sense of self and working toward living in a peaceful state, I surrender to this next part of this process.